Guess what? That did NOT happen.
First of all, this store is major sensory overload! Music blasting, x-small tanks and too-short denim from floor to ceiling (literally), and preteen girls everywhere, frantically sliding hangers across poles to find that perfect outfit. As if it wasn’t already enough that I was hitting my afternoon I-really-could-use-a-nap feeling, all of this was wearing my mind thin.
After thirty or so minutes of sliding hangers and touching shirts (why do we have to touch every article of clothing we pass?), and when I’d had enough One Direction and Kelly Clarkson blaring in my ears, I headed for the fitting room, five pieces in hand. As I tried each one on, hoping for a miracle, I became more and more annoyed and less and less excited about this decision to check out the store. The shirts made me look like a balloon and I found myself wondering why they even make this stuff, but I guess when you’re a size zero, you can wear things that look like sacks and it doesn’t matter; you still look like a size zero!
And that’s when the voices started to sneak into my head.
You’re not good enough.
Look at how pretty all of these girls are.
You look ridiculous in that.
Just give up!
Insecurity has long been a friend of mine. Always faithful, always there, always willing to offer opinions and advice and LIES.
When I have a need to be the best in every area, and something threatens that, I crumble, falling victim to the deceit of the enemy.
I want to be lovely and beautiful in the eyes of the world, yet I am told by my Savior that I AM lovely and beautiful in HIS eyes! The reason? Because I am His. I am beloved and I am “clothed with strength and dignity” (Proverbs 31:25 NIV), not with the latest fashions or the cutest hairstyle. Why do I continually strive to please the critical eyes of the culture around me when I already have the favor of the Lover of my soul?
“Clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.” (Romans 13:14 NIV)
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as she reveals her struggles with insecurity and body image.
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