Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Nobody Needs to Know What I Did



“I just don’t think I can admit that to the world.  What will people think of me?  I will be completely rejected.”

The words slowly emerge from her lips, lips that long to speak of stories deep and personal, stories from years past that continue to haunt.

“I’m better off keeping it to myself anyway.  Nobody needs to know what I did.”

And I watch as she stuffs the past deep down, hoping to move on and nudge our conversation to the next topic, one much less invasive and vulnerable.

But my heart does not move on.  I continually wonder why we are so drawn to isolation of the spirit when it comes to revealing our struggles.  We carefully choose words, making sure we never say too much, and we fool ourselves into thinking we can survive this life all alone.  After all, if we ever admit the truth, we’ll be alone anyway, right?  Nobody will understand.

We’ve been hurt in the past.  Hurt by women who took our pain and refused to tread lightly.  And after awhile, we got really good at building walls or stone to protect ourselves.  Sadly, the walls also keep us in, and eventually WE don’t even know who we really are anymore. 
Therefore, having put away falsehood, let each one of you speak the truth with his neighbor, for we are members one of another.  (Ephesians 4:25 ESV)
Allowing others to share in our struggles may sound scary, but if we allow Him, God might surprise us!  There is freedom in being authentic!  Why do we fool ourselves into thinking that our sin is so much worse than everyone else’s?  And why do we refuse the opportunity to proclaim the grace of Jesus Christ in our rescue?
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  (2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV)
Anything God has saved us from is an outpouring of His power and His affection for us.  It’s a stunning story of redemption, proof of His salvation!  Our weakness exhibits His strength.

Unless no one ever hears…

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11 comments:

Mary Beth said...

It's so true. I tell my clients all the time that God's power is show in their weakness. Why can't I hear that myself?!

Mary Beth
newlifesteward.com

Jacqui said...

I love it! It's as if you're talking about me!? :) It pricks...it probes! I read a quote today, "Truth will set you free!" Truth! Much too often I bury the secrets. Much too often I let them take me captive. Thanks for your heart! Thanks for sharing, sweet friend!

Katie @simply[his] said...

I like what you said, "Much too often I let them take me captive."  I'm trying desperately to learn to take every thought captive before it overcomes me!!!  Oh, we have much to learn, friend.  Glad you're along for the journey.  <3

joyfullyinhim said...

Oh, as Emily Freeman says..."To live aunthentically free." This is just beautiful, inspiring to allow the the power of the gospel to seep from our dark places that we hide deep with in. I could never share those things with the world, what would they think... oh but what might He do with our sweet surrender and humility?? That is the bigger question, right?

Thank you for this!

Jennifer Dawn McLucas said...

Thank you for pointing out that our secrets are what isolate us from others. So often I think I'm protecting myself by keeping silent with my struggles, but in reality the silence is what keeps me from developing authentic relationships. It's true, sometimes authentic relationships bring pain, but it's a more fulfilling kind of pain than that of loneliness. 

Amy McCollister said...

I love that we have one of those friendships (as strange as it is for either of us) where we don't hold back. A friendship where we DO share struggles...daily, hourly, minute-by-minute... :) Love you friend.

Katie @simply[his] said...

oh me too!!!! it's such a blessing. love you, dear!

Kerry @ Made For Real said...

Beautiful post, beautiful site!
'drawn to isolation of the spirit' - yes

Eyvonne said...

Visiting from Emily's today. This is wonderful!

Joy in this Journey said...

We are so drawn to isolation, when it's the last thing we need. Thank you for sharing this!

Denise Oldham said...

Bless you for sharing.

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