Confession: This little introverted "must-plan-everything" girl does not like change. I like routine, schedules, plans! They allow me to breathe easier and smile more. (Seriously, try to spring something on me spur-of-the-moment and see what happens...)
I'm convinced, however, that God wants me to chill out a little bit about this whole change thing. Over the last few years, I've encountered many changes in my world, and every single time, I've met them kicking and screaming!
In the last year or so, I've lost friendships- really good ones!- and I've fought it. Consistently, I would find myself asking why I couldn't keep that person interested in me or what I said/did to push them away.
Every single time.
But I've recently come to realize something, really realize it. You know, not one of those "it's in my head realizations" but one of those light bulb moments when a reality bangs you in the forehead and sinks right on in!
God gives me the things/people I need for whatever leg of the journey I'm on.
When my life changes, and He moves me to another part of His plan for me, He knows what I need. He brings new things all the time!
He brings change.
Change that I need for the moment.
"Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." (Isaiah 43:18-19)
And what does He require of me? That I embrace whatever gifts He shares with me.
And my loving Redeemer speaks softly to me all the while...
"I am going to make things so satisfying, with myself, that you will have life in the desert! I will be your living water. I will give you what you need. Let go of the past. Stop worrying. Stop blaming. Stop wishing."
Embrace the change.
He is doing a new thing!
Counting gifts with Ann Voskamp today.
#24 Afternoon shadows in my woods
#32 Second Chances
#37 Beautiful music that moves me
#39 Silence when I need it
#46 Weekend renewal for my soul